Embracing Femininity

 Aloha & Happy Friday, Reader!

After I made the decision to leave my toxic SF Bay Area community cult members, I also made the decision to fill some of my time embracing my womanliness.

Over the years, I dabbled in makeup and hair, motivated often out of self-exploration, curiosity and the desire to be attractive to my partner. A fun beauty memory is getting my first set of highlights and lowlights in Boston, MA at Amaci Salon. For a manicure, I'll never forget the first time I got acrylic nails during my undergraduate years at Bryant University (College). Later, when my son was born, I discovered gel nails, because I could keep a pretty manicure & still change diapers!

In October of 2023, after getting my own apartment, one of my intentional therapeutic transmutations of energy was to embrace being a woman. In this spirit, I spent a lot of solo time curling my hair and having fun with makeup, despite dealing with ongoing threats and harassment. My bathroom provided a mini escape for me, and I began to understand myself more on the “surface level” - what kind of lipstick, blush and beauty products I truly enjoyed.

Unfortunately these actions made me more attractive and more of an energetic source for toxic male energy. Reflecting, though, I sometimes choose to revisit all the times I curled my hair and applied makeup to simply sit with a pour over coffee in my quiet living room. As I continue to move towards positive male energy, memories fade over those who have wronged me.

If you were also a victim of a sexually-deviant crime, as a female, reclamation of your femininity may look much different than mine, but please consider stepping into your 'pretty light' and ease into your most confident woman self - YOU deserve it.

With Empowerment Vibes,

Heidi